Every once in a while, I come to a crossroads, and end up questioning one of the two following (and maybe related questions):
A: do I spend my money on things that bring me closer to God?
I take a good look around my room, I see clunker drumset (well loved by previous owner), a guitar, an amp, a shelf of books, a shelf of DVDs, and numerous shelves of action figures that I keep around cuz they're still cool (I'll buy two or three a in a year). I notice that I have enough shirts to fill two drawers, and at least twenty identical socks in different stages of disrepair. I am proud to say that I have six pairs of shoes (flips, dress, boots, chucks, yard shoes, and my squeaker-sneakers: eee-ee-squee-ee). I thank the lord I don't have a television or computer.
About 70% of it, I paid for with my own cash.
Of these items, how many of them see the light of day? How many of these have some kind of spiritual significance that could either bring me, or someone else closer to God? It's certainly not wrong to spend money on things that make our earthly life more fun and easy, but how much is too much?
B: Music + brain = ?
I'm through looking at my room. Lets move downstairs to the computer room. In the computer room, you will find my stereo, and my case of CDs (100+). Most of these I bought used, otherwise I would never afford so much. What can I say? I'm a music lover. Back in the day, I had a certain number of albums, and would only get more on Christmas and Easter (my cash went to other places then). I listened to each tape and CD over and over and over and over again throughout the year. I had these albums memorized. Every lyric, every sound, it was in my head. Each album became a part of me.
Fast forward to now--I buy at least 20 CDs every year, sometimes more. I realized to my horror a few days ago that I don't remember the lyrics like I used to, don't remember the names of songs, it's just getting more and more...iPod-ish (gasp!) The music doesn't have the same meaning, I just buy more and more, and don't take the time to truely absorb and appreciate the music I have. Not only that, but how much of my music is really worth absorbing?
The Point!!!:
I find myself pondering these two issues the other night amidst prayer. I was mostly thinking on the music, but the material things apply as well. My money, and my time are both precious gifts of God. So I did this:
I asked God that from now on, He would be the one in charge of what I spend my cash on, and what music I buy and listen too. Only what will strengthen my relationship with Him, and with others. I ask him to be the one in charge of that, because I honestly don't have a clue anymore about what's good for me and what isn't.
Over time, our communication will hopefully get better (i.e. I will listen more) and my choices will be a closer approximation to his will.
This isn't like a covenent or anything, it's just an idea. The goal being that God will shine through everything.
Everything.
I don't expect to be totally successful, but then again, I don't really know how God's gonna move here. He keeps me on my toes.