Why I'm still blogging on this thing ( www.theflameofarnor.blogspot.com )

I do miss this blog. There was a time when I used to blog on it (www.theflameofarnor.blogspot.com -- for all you facebookers)frequently (once a week at some points). I've had it for nearly four years. It's been a place where I used to pontificate with the intention of having others read it and comment and generally keep abreast on what was going on in my head (because that was apparently important). In some cases, it was for entertainment of the readers, and others it was a kind of service whereby my better meditations could be presented for my friends' perusal. Then I sort of went through this period of "journal" posts where I was trying to sort out my experiences cathartically. It was a place where I could complain about people (without names dates and places) in a way where those people could potentially happen upon my blog and indirectly surmise my feelings about them. That got sort of depressing after a while. For a long time it seemed that I only posted when I was feeling bitter or angry. That's not always an accurate picture of my life, so soon stopped posting habitually altogether.

Ultimately, this blog has become a place to record things which I feel are important about me as well as things which are important for me to remember. So it really is a journal, only it's a public one where anyone can read it if they feel so inclined. So I have to be kinda careful too.

Despite the publicness of these posts, I realize that, of course, not many people actually read them (before or now). Therefore, over time, I have almost completely shed the idea that I would be writing on this blog for the sake of any reader other than myself. In other words, this space is really for me. I don't mind if people read it. In fact, I'd be flattered if they did so (and commented to let me know they stopped by). My point is, if the posts seem really self-centered, it's because that's become the purpose of the blog these days. I'm writing to myself. It's my diary. I'm expelling my guts. It's therepy.

I wish I could say it's going to be a regular thing, but really I don't have as much time anymore. I get so busy that it seems I rarely have any time for myself. It seems wasteful unless I truly have an excess. But I'll try to blog as often as I am able (and I have the motivation).

In any case, I just want to put this out there: TheSecretFire is HERE TO STAY!!!!

I have no intention of ever giving up this space. I do catalog it elsewhere in the event that my account (or Blogger for that matter) were to go under. However, until such a thing were to occur, I mean to use this space forever.

That's part of the beauty of Blogger! As long as I have access to the internet, I'll have access to this space. It's my home...on the internet. It's become a part of me and I hope to never let it go.

Thanks for everything.