Fasting-I am so human
Okay, I'll cut to the chase. I'm going on another Media fast this week. I only say this because I could use some prayer in regards to it.
It all started about three years ago. I can honestly say that I was at the height of my spiritual walk so far during the fall of that year. There are several reasons why I believe that was, but I can't relate them all just now. All I know is, I am not as close to God as I have been, and bottom line: I'm not okay. I need to step up the pace so to speak. I've done it before, I can do it again.
In my experience, the purpose of fasting is this: to sacrifice a staple in your life, and whenever you feel the need for this staple, you shift your focus back on God. It can be anything, from food, sex, communication with friends, or a specific facit of your life. I discovered a couple of years ago that the biggest crutch in my life was the Media. Not only was it a distraction from more important aspects of my life in general, but also from God.
Fasting from these things was one of the many things that helped me reach that level with God. I'm partly inspired to do it again by Adam's talk last night, Derek Louix's talks last week, and bottom line, the holy Spirit. God wants me nearer to him. I need to quiet the voices that cloud my mind, so I can hear the only voice that really matters.
This is difficult for several reasons. Number one of course is, I really like the Media. A lot. But the other is my family. Because we are so close knit, nothing ever happens that goes unnoticed. Especially movies, as this is something we do together on a regular basis. I prefer to keep fasts private, and that's hard in my family. Some of them support my decision to fast like this, but others think it's a little wierd. I don't blame them. It's pretty wierd to me too.
Some prayer in this matter and others with my family would be appreciated. I love them to death and they are simply the closest to perfection I have ever seen on this earth. But they are human, and so am I.
It all started about three years ago. I can honestly say that I was at the height of my spiritual walk so far during the fall of that year. There are several reasons why I believe that was, but I can't relate them all just now. All I know is, I am not as close to God as I have been, and bottom line: I'm not okay. I need to step up the pace so to speak. I've done it before, I can do it again.
In my experience, the purpose of fasting is this: to sacrifice a staple in your life, and whenever you feel the need for this staple, you shift your focus back on God. It can be anything, from food, sex, communication with friends, or a specific facit of your life. I discovered a couple of years ago that the biggest crutch in my life was the Media. Not only was it a distraction from more important aspects of my life in general, but also from God.
Fasting from these things was one of the many things that helped me reach that level with God. I'm partly inspired to do it again by Adam's talk last night, Derek Louix's talks last week, and bottom line, the holy Spirit. God wants me nearer to him. I need to quiet the voices that cloud my mind, so I can hear the only voice that really matters.
This is difficult for several reasons. Number one of course is, I really like the Media. A lot. But the other is my family. Because we are so close knit, nothing ever happens that goes unnoticed. Especially movies, as this is something we do together on a regular basis. I prefer to keep fasts private, and that's hard in my family. Some of them support my decision to fast like this, but others think it's a little wierd. I don't blame them. It's pretty wierd to me too.
Some prayer in this matter and others with my family would be appreciated. I love them to death and they are simply the closest to perfection I have ever seen on this earth. But they are human, and so am I.
posted by Your humble servant at 9:02 AM
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