Heavy heart

I have a heavy heart today.

I can't say why. Lots of stuff has been bugging me.

Things that are normally fun aren't.

The internet is slow.


I hate dropping my woes on people, but you chose to read this. :)


All the music I try to write turns out to be someone else's music.

I envy other people's talent, supposed freedom, influence, esteem, confidence, image etc.

I realize that I'm not as strong as I think I am.

I take so much of what I have for granted.

I feel imature and naive.

God feels silent today.

I feel like he's hiding something from me.

I'm not mad, sad or scared...just heavy.

Right now I just want to be with someone, and there's no one here except Seth who is sleeping (and doesn't really count :P ).

I trust that all will be revealed in God's time, but that doesn't make the cercumstance any easier.